Part of Me

Super Daddy Chris When you and I split, my mind split Now that ain't right, bitch You supposed to be the one that I spend my life with Not a damn thing you could say to justify it I can't believe I really thought you were my ride or die (eh) The last time I talked to you I felt like dying, you said suicide was alright and I should try it And I did, three times, I won't deny it But I will never be that man again as long as I live, 'cause I could not survive I had to kill that part of me That part of me that always wanted you You never wanted me 'Cause I could never be What you wanted me to be So I had to go to war Just to find some inner peace That part of me (Ah! Ah! Ah!) That part of me (Ah! Ah! Ah!) That part of me (Ah! Ah! Ah!) That part of me was gonna get me killed So now i'm choosing me I thought You and I would be together 'til we boxed in Bought you a ring and everything, thought we were locked in So when you told me "I don't love you anymore" That got me feelin' like my heart stopped, like my clock did You shattered every future that I'd pictured in my mind Turned a home into a graveyard where my hope went to die Had me begging for a heartbeat that was never really mine Had to put that version of me in the dirt and say goodbye I could not survive I had to kill that part of me That part of me that always wanted you You never wanted me 'Cause I could never be What you wanted me to be So I had to go to war Just to find some inner peace That part of me Ah! Ah! Ah! That part of me Ah! Ah! Ah! That part of me Ah! Ah! Ah! That part of me was gonna get me killed So now i'm choosing me I had to rip your name up out my chest and let it bleed Turn our playlist to a funeral, every song a eulogy All the "forever"s that we promised turned to weaponry So I burned our favorite letters just to set my spirit free Went to war with all my demons, had to lace my boots and breathe Every trigger was a memory I was gunnin' down in me On the frontline with my shadows, let 'em scream and let 'em speak 'Til the smoke cleared from the battlefield and I could finally sleep If I kept hangin' on to you while you denyin' me I would've killed myself just so you could feel for me (THATS WHY) I could not survive I had to kill that part of me That part of me that always wanted you You never wanted me 'Cause I could never be What you wanted me to be So I had to go to war Just to find some inner peace That part of me Ah! Ah! Ah! That part of me Ah! Ah! Ah! That part of me Ah! Ah! Ah! That part of me was gonna get me killed So now I'm choosing me Staring at the ceiling Like it might answer back Cut your ghost out of my photos Left the edges jagged black If love means losing myself Then that's not love for me So I buried who I was for you And dug up who I'm meant to be I could not survive I had to kill that part of me That part of me that always wanted you You never wanted me 'Cause I could never be What you wanted me to be So I had to go to war Just to find some inner peace That part of me Ah! Ah! Ah! That part of me Ah! Ah! Ah! That part of me Ah! Ah! Ah! That part of me was gonna get me killed for choosing you But now i'm choosing me Writer(s): Mark Edwards